Monday, August 31, 2009

Prevent Breast Cancer with Vitamin D - Dr. Christiane Northrup - Oprah.com

"Exciting new research shows that, in the United States alone, thousands of new cases of breast cancer could be prevented every year if more women had optimal levels of vitamin D." . . . click on the title to read this article.

Love,
Nancy

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Dang, I'm LUCKY!

Here's part of an email Elaine sent to me this evening.  Wow.  Brought me to tears.  I'm grateful and fortunate to have people in my life that have my BACK!  Love you all!


Dearest Nancy:

I had an incredable experience this morning after church.  I was telling Rick, our Episcopal priest about you and you wonderful family.  Rick remembers your parents from Jim's memorial service.

Rick asked me to come up to the altar with him and to lay my hands on the altar, and Rick said the most wonderful prayers for you and your whole family. Nancy, I had never prayed with my hands on an altar, I must say it was one of the most moving moments in my life.  I have the whole church, 8:30 AM, 9:15 AM, 10:30 AM and 5:30 PM services praying for you, plus all of the special groups that meet.

. . . Well my Dear Nancy, I will also share with you the photo I took of a hummingbird at the zoo.  The zoo keeper told us to turn around quietly and see if you could see the hummingbird in the flowers...amazing.  I am always taken by the beauty and serenity of the hummingbird; the little hummingbirds are so intent on their purpose in life.  Nancy, I want you to think of yourself as a hummingbird when you are at chemo....you have a big purpose in life to love Nancy, Jeff, your boys, your family; but most of all to love Nancy.  


Thank You Elaine!  I love you too!

hot Hot HOT in San Diego!

This has been a great weekend.  Started off with a Win for CSC BU14!  Way to go boys!  Tate had a great game, all the boys did.  It was fun to watch, heat and all.  After that I met up with a new friend, Judy, who seriously has amazing energy.  We chatted for over an hour at Starbucks; comparing our cancer stories.  She had some really good advice for me.  I love her attitude.  So inspiring.  Like all my "scar sisters" (right,  Monique?)  Smile.


Me and the boys watch Chula Vista take care of business during the Little League World Series.  Mercy Rule, of course.  The boys were on FIRE!  


Then off to AG movie night.  Ok, Bed Time Stories is a really cute movie!  It's one to own, I think.  Good times with friends.  Cool night in San Diego to watch a movie under the stars.  


Today, I drove to La Jolla Shores to watch Nolan and his friend Zach surf.  I found front row parking, which was crazy considering there were people in front of me and behind me looking for spots.  For some reason, I was the only one that saw this front row parking spot.  Crazzzy.  The boys had finished surfing and were digging in the sand.  It was a treat to see that.  Then, Monique and I had breakfast at Brockton Villa in La Jolla.  It had been Waaay too long since I've seen you Monique.  Catching up was a lot of fun.  You are one amazing lady.  My Scar Sister, forever. <3 you!  two pictures of me and Monique 2009 and 2005





I made it home in time to watch the Little League International World Series with my Tate.  (Nolan's hanging with Zach all day)  The game was great.  China played well but of course, Chula Vista took care of business, once again.  Love that team!


I am feeling really well and I expect to continue to for the next couple of weeks.  Now that I have a good idea on what to expect next chemo round, I feel better prepared.  With your good energy flowing all around me, and me knowing to ask for help on those down days so my boys don't see their momma down, 24-7 will make the next go around easier for everyone.  My boys are the best helpers, they stayed close by, holding my hand - rubbing my feet, seeing me through my 2 dark days.  They will still help me but this time, they'll have a break.  Have some fun.  Thanks for everyones offer to take them when needed.  That's huge knowing that.  Jeff has been a rock for me.  He knows just what to say and do.  I'm a lucky lady.  


Mom and Dad went to Idylwild for the Jazz in the Pines concert this weekend.  In the past, we'd all go up; rent a huge cabin and enjoy some jazz under a canopy of trees and swaying parachutes tied to the trees.  http://www.idyllwildjazz.com/  I highly recommend this concert.  Super cool.  Here are some pictures from the 2005 Jazz in the Pines!  


Love you all! I'll write more soon. . . Nancy ~ aka: Scar Sister Milk Dud Warrior (SSMDW) Smile.









Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Dr. Wayne Dyer - 12 ways to simplify your life and set your spirit free!

Here's another great article:

INSPIRATION - LOUISE HAY - LET GO OF YOUR FEARS


Today was perfect.  Nolan's having fun with his cousins; camping at the beach!  Tate's loving soccer camp.  I returned to work.  So glad to be back and feeling WELL!  


Some may not find this interesting. . . I'm about to write about "bras".  You've been warned.  Smile.  I was fitted for new bras tonight at Nordstrom.  Again.  KP pays for this.  I received 3 beautiful bras with 2 silicone pads.  FREE!  Seriously.  Veronica at Nordstrom's helped me again.  She sure is professional and helpful.  She seemed to think a D cup would be perfect for me.  Well, I laughed.  Then told her that I've always been a barely an A cup so why change now.  She said my body frame can handle a D cup.  I tried it, and wow, I was really surprised.  The new girl-wanna-be's looked really GOOD.  But I decided on the C cup.  I feel good about it.  I can't wait to try them out!  


I'm expecting to feel good for the next 2 weeks, at least.  But I've been told that between day 5-7 after chemo, (which is now) my white blood cell count could be at it's lowest and to be very careful, not to get sick.  I'm already super serious about staying healthy with my hand sanitizer at hands reach, always.  Neurotic is more the word.  LOL!


Time for bed.  Good night.  I love you all!


Nancy

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Today is a great day.  I'm easing into it; grateful I'm feeling better.  Yesterday, I received many cards - thank you!  And I felt many prayers being sent my way - thank you!  Have you ever heard of a book called 'It's Not About the Hair And Other Certainties of Life & Cancer', by Debra Jarvis?  Thanks Linnea for sending this to me!  I look forward to reading it.


Radiate Serenity and Peace
Radiate an energy of serenity and peace so that you have an uplifting effect on those you come into contact with. Your presence will make others feel calm and assured.

Thanks Lane.  Another perfect card you pulled for me.  <3

Enjoy your Tuesday.  


Love,
Nancy 

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Go Chula Vista Little League!

We sure enjoy watching the Little League World Series, cheering on Chula Vista! What an amazing team. Great talent.

So, I'm learning to deal w/ chemo. Today was probably my worst day yet. Slight fever and a really bad migraine. I slept a lot. I'll get use to all this. I'm eating well. Staying strong. My boys and Jeff are spoiling me. Taking great care of me. I'm so lucky.

Thank you for your loving energy.

Love,
Nancy




Friday, August 21, 2009

Summer Thunder Storm in San Diego

Hello,

I'm feeling well. Just really tired. The doctor prescribed a med for me to take the day before, day of and day after chemo and it turns out it really makes me feel wired. Can't sleep very well, so I'm groggy. I'll get use to this. i have the weekend to catch up on rest.

What a day to stay home though, I've been enjoying the rumbling thunder and a few rain drops. Good day to be home.

Your well wishes give me so much strength. I always feel the love around me.

Love,
Nancy

Thursday, August 20, 2009

One down, Five to go. . .























Feels good to have one done. Jeff was with me today, we spent 5 hours napping, talking watching young and the restless! Thanks baby for being there for me - I love you! Mary stopped by, which was a surprise! I loved it! Thanks Marz! And Randi, who cut my hair, stopped by. And Jeff Sr. stopped by. Perfect. Now I'm home with my boys. They had another great day with their Aunt Wendy. Thanks for taking care of my boys Wendy. <3

I'm feeling well. Just a little tired. Deb is coming by with homemade enchiladas in a few. Yummy. So thoughtful.

I'll write more tomorrow. thanks for your comments. I love all your kind and thoughtful postings!

Love and hugs!
Nancy

Here's a great card that Lane pulled for me. Thanks Lane!

"I practice being conscious of everything I do."

"When I focus on deepening my consciousness, I can choose to create a life that is personally and spiritually empowering."

Day One, Chemo

I'm enjoying some coffee, checking my email, my normal morning thing. Life's good. I received more inspiring notes and cards yesterday. The words my friends and family write to me are touching me deeply. Great messages. I feel all your love around, especially right now, this very day, The beginning of my chemo journey which will make me well again. I feel grateful not only for all of you, but also for the chemo that will be going through my body. It will do it's job, the best way it can. If I start to feel sick, I will remember, this chemo is a gift, and to just ride it out. It's important to stay grateful, no matter how I feel. And I do. I'm ready. I really am Ready.

Love you all!
Nancy

"The angels can guide you to see the bright side of situations, to forgive, and to laugh." and "Praise your inner glow so that its embers may burn even brighter." DOREEN VIRTUE

"I am totally adequate for all situations." Louise Hay

If you say "I don't want to be sick anymore" this is not an affirmation for Good Health - Affirm: I Accept Perfect
Health now." Louise Hay

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Here's a better picture of my new look. Love you! Nancy






U2 Elevation Video - click here

Thanks Michelle for sending this U2 video link. It's ironic you sent this. We (me, Tate, Nolan and my dad) have tickets to see the band October 25 in Pasadena.

It's just a few days after my 4th round of chemo. I will be well enough to go. I can't wait to experience this concert with my boys and my dad. I've seen U2 many times w/ dad but never w/ my boys.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Hair is cut

I really can't believe my new look. It's shocking but at the same time good. Thanks Randi for cutting my hair and giving me such excellent advice. You've been through so much and I'm truly grateful to know you (thank you Amy!).

Here I am. Short hair. wow. I'll get use to this. I'm in my true "milk dud warrior mode" now.

Love,
Nancy

"I am the star in my own movie. I am also the author and the director. I create wonderful roles for myself".
Louise Hay





Oncology Appointment . . .

Wow, so much to say. . . get ready for this . . . (parts of this will sound ridiculous, b/c well. . . it IS RIDICULOUS!)

I'm scheduled for Chemo this Thursday, 8/20/09 - not at 1:30pm but at 9:30am.

I'm not having AC after all. My oncologist feels that TC (Taxotere/Cytoxan) would be a better chemo-cocktail. I agree, especially reading this article (Click on title). I asked my dr. to triple check to see if I for sure didn't qualify for the Avastin study. He said he would. . .

So, we're all set. . . right? No. . . When I got to work, I receive a call from the Research Nurse (Joan). She says that she made a phone call to the Clinical Trial folks and it turn out that I DO qualify for the dang study.

Why this phone call confirmation wasn't made 2+ weeks ago when I asked her 5 different ways "are you sure I don't qualify for this study . . .??) That's the ridiculous part. & yes, I did asked her and she gave me a lame answer. blah, blah, blah...

If I choose to do the study, I will need make an appointment for a heart scan & EKG (b/c the AC could damage the heart muscle and they need to make sure my ticker can take it), and have blood work done. If all that's normal, then they order the drugs which takes, hello?, another 7 days. Basically, this could delay my chemo 2 weeks.

Joan's phone call really confused me. One minute I'm not a canidate and the next I am. Then one minute the dr. says AC is the way to go and now it's not. . . My gut tells me that TC is the way to go.

I called a nurse w/ a different hospital and asked her advice (thanks Monique for that contact!). And guess what? She gladly gave it to me. So grateful. She thinks TC is the way to go. It works. Then I found the above article. . . I'll research some more tonight.

The Avastin study might or might not be right for me. And the study takes 6 months then another 3 months (if after the 6 months, and the trial is unblinded and I was actually given the Avastin).

I'm on for Thursday, 9:30am. I'll read the real scary Avastin study clinical trial paper work tonight, but I'm 99.9% sure I'll skip the trial. Maybe if this was a choice 2+ weeks ago, then maybe my dicision would be different.

Here are my Chemo-dates - please mark your calendars to send extra positive energy my way:
8/20 - 9:30am
9/10 - 10:15am
10/01 - 10:15am
10/22 - 9:45am
11/12 - 9:30am
12/3 - 9:30am

One other thing to mention . . . I'll be assigned to a new Oncologist b/c my current dr. is being relocated up to San Marco in Oct. It's actually a good thing. And if this new oncologist rubs me the wrong way, KP will hear about it.

Wow, I guess I ranted a little bit on this posting.

Tonight, my hair will be cut short in preparation for loosing it. This will be fun. And don't be surprised if I have platnium blonde hair tomorrow! I'll take before and after pictures. Bonnie, I'll be back once my hair grows back. Love you GIRL!

Love you all!
oh, one more link. . . this is fun. A-List B-Cups! Love it! http://www.thedailybeast.com/blogs-and-stories/2009-08-12/a-list-b-cups/



Summer 2008 - 29 Palms visit

Last Summer - 29 Palms, Ca. Me and the boys had such a great time visiting Nana and Poppy! Good times! Supper at Jumbo Rock - breakfast at the Inn. We look forward to another visit!

Time to get ready for my oncology appointment. I'll post an update later.

Love,
Nancy





Check out this CNN article

They're ready to sting, and they know where they're going.
MIT postdoctoral fellow Abigail Lytton-Jean explains machinery for making nanoparticle materials.
MIT postdoctoral fellow Abigail Lytton-Jean explains machinery for making nanoparticle materials.

They're called "nanobees," and they're not insects -- they're tiny particles designed to destroy cancer cells by delivering a synthesized version of toxin called melittin that is found in bees.
"Melittin, which would otherwise result in substantial destruction of your red blood cells and other normal tissues if it were delivered intravenously alone, is completely safe when it's on a nanoparticle," said Dr. Samuel Wickline, director of the Siteman Center of Cancer Nanotechnology Excellence at Washington University in St. Louis, Missouri. . . .
click on the title link to read more. :-)

Monday, August 17, 2009

BREATHE! click here

Seems silly to have to be reminded to breathe, but it's true. And I now feel good again.

Thanks Kim and Heidi for the reminder! Love you!
Nancy




AC Chemo Cocktail Information - click here

Here's some helpful information regarding my possible Chemo Cocktail. I'll know for sure if this is the one ordered up for me tomorrow. I'm 99% sure it is. hugs! Nancy

Monday morning . . .


Be vigilant for peace in all ways, and stand for peacefulness in all of your doings. ~Doreen Virtue

Wow, the weekend flew by. Tate and I took a billion pictures at Nolan's baseball tournament last weekend. Felt good to look through the small camera window, capture moments to share and treasure. I had put my camera down for a few months, but no more! I'm back snapping away!


No baseball or soccer this weekend. Now what? Oh, I know . . . I can now catch up on laundry. joy. Smile.


Love,
Nancy







Sunday, August 16, 2009

sunday checkin

What a day! The boys ended up playing two games! Fun times. Nolan's getting his groove back. Sure was great to see.

Speaking of groove back, I feel great. I feel READY! Bring it ON!

I'll post more pictures later.

Tuesday, I meet w/ my oncologist. This appointment is just to make sure I'm healing well, which I am. Plus, he'll confirm the chemo cocktail they plan to give me on Thursday. AC is suppose to be the mix, but we'll see. Jeff will be there with me, for this long chemo visit.

Have a peaceful night and work week!

Love you all!
Nancy















Mother's Day 2009










Saturday, August 15, 2009

Saturday Checkin


"The path of true abundance comes from spending time, thought, and energy on those areas of my life that are most fulfilling to me. Over time, this is how I create the life of my dreams." Dr. Christine Northrup

I'm noticing a shift in my mood the past couple of days. And I'm not liking it at all. I'm getting worked up on things that I have no control over. It's time to review The Power of Now. I need to get focused on what's really important. Not knowing how my body is going to take the chemo this week has me feeling uneasy. But, nothing I can't handle. I'll get back on track. Thanks for your prayers and well wishes. I feel your love every minute of every day. I'm truly grateful.

Nolan had his first ever travel baseball game tournament. The boys did really well, considering they've only practiced twice. I think they all learned a lot. Nolan needs to get his confidence back. He loves baseball so much. I love watching him play. The boys have at least one more game tomorrow, hopefully two games though. Hopefully his mojo returns! I have high hopes it will. :-)

We got a new computer! It's an iMac. Love it! It's super-crazy-easy! PC's
can be so complicated to set up. This iMac was as simple as plugging in. Love that! Jeff, you did a fantastic job finding the most awesome computer EVER! Love you Baby!

I'll post some baseball pictures later on. I hope all is well w/ my family and friends! Millie, I received the wrap you knitted for me! It's so pretty and soft! I'll treasure it and it will give me much comfort! Thank you!!

Speaking of Thanks. There are so many people I would like to thank w/ thank you cards. I hope to send some out in the next few weeks. Please know that I appreciate all your love and support!!!

Cindy, Stay Strong Girl! I think of you every day! You are my inspiration! Love you!

Bye for now.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Weightlifting helps breast cancer survivors - click here

Interesting Article from the SD Union Tribune. Thanks Carol!

Study: Weightlifting helps breast cancer survivors
August 12, 2009
By Marilynn Marchione, The Associated Press


love, Nancy






"Have faith that God won't... send you anything you're incapable of handling. You can decide that the word FEAR is an acronym for False Evidence Appearing Real!" ~Dr. Wayne Dyer

Have a wonderful day.
Love, Nancy

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

New York Times Article on Chemo Brain.

Click on this link to learn more about Chemo Brain. I've talked to a lot of people who live with this after chemo. Nolan asked me yesterday "what's chemo brain? Will you forget me? What will you forget?" I told him I'd never forget him or any of my family/friends but that I may forget what I had for dinner last night or what team Cristiano Ronaldo is now playing for. . .

Thanks Beth for telling me about article. It helps to have a heads up on this!


Daily Affirmation - By Dr. Christiane Northrup
I release resentment and anger regularly after allowing myself to feel these emotions fully. I do this by saying, "I now forgive and release shoulda, woulda, coulda's in my life". I loose and let go, and I am free. Once I begin, I find more and more things to release. This practice is a powerful way to rejuvenate my body and my life.


Have a great day!
Love, Nancy

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Video to share! - click here

Hi again! Here's a cool video that Michelle forwarded. Perfect message! Great song! Classic!

Love,
Nancy

10 more days . . .

Good morning! 10 more days then the chemo begins. It was recommended to me that I fatten up this week and next, to help on those days I don't feel like eating much during my 12-week chemotherapy. Any healthy recipes that are loaded in calories any one would like to forward to me, I'd appreciate!

Yesterday was my first day back at work and it went really well. Played catch up. It was great seeing my work family again, it had only been 2 weeks but it felt longer than that. Plus, I met up with some truly amazing women from the SDPD for lunch. Wow, that was a huge treat. Thank you for everything! You all are so thoughtful. I hope to do that again, real soon.

The boys stayed with friends last night. I got to bed at a good hour. Summer is slowly ending, school is just around the corner. Almost time to go back to school shopping. But at the rate my 13 year old is growing, I'd rather wait the day before school to buy him new cloths! :-)

Tate had a soccer tournament last weekend. Fun times. They came in 2nd! Whew-hoo! In between one of the games, we watched another game, and there was this lady in a yellow dress. some say she reminded them of me. Why? Well, b/c she was cheering on her team in a unique way with phrases like "go go go! NICE! YEEEESSSS!". She was animated. Jumping up and down. I'm surprised she didn't do a cart-wheel. No, I don't do cartwheels but I do get into it. She was fun to watch and made me realize that perhaps I should tone down my cheering. I know you all love it when I say "more mustard!" or "turn and burn!". I crack my self up. Thanks for putting up w/ me on the sideline. I love soccer!!!!! I love watching my boys play!!!!!

I found this quote today, i love it!:

"Wake up all the desire and pleasure that your body is capable of experiencing, let your past go, and follow your bliss just for the health of it." - Dr. Christiane Northrup

Be well!
Love,
Nancy

Friday, August 7, 2009

PET Scan Results are in . . . :-)

Everything is NORMAL on my scan! What a huge relief! I just got off the phone w/the research nurse in Oncology and she gave me the good news. As mentioned before. . . my pathology report indicated "scant residual invasive lobular carcinoma, Grade 1/3" left behind on my right side. In a nut shell, that now means, I do not qualify for the Avastin study. That was confirmed today. If I would have qualified for the study, I would have had the red carpet treatment throughout my chemotherapy treatments. It's OK though. Now that I know my Scan is normal, chemo and radiation will eliminate the cancer all together. I don't need the Avastin. Wasn't meant to be.

Today, I'm feeling well. Yesterday, I had many naps. Plus I went to KP to have my left side drained a little. Felt like I had a small water balloon forming. Strange feeling. TMI?

I have an appointment w/ my oncologist on Tuesday, 8/18 and then Chemo will start 8/20 at 1:30pm. This appointment (since it's my first time) will last 3-4 hours. Please mark your calendars to send extra positive energy and prayers my way.

Love,
Nancy

Thursday, August 6, 2009

I am flexible and flowing

"I am gentle with myself, knowing that I am doing the best I can with the knowledge and understanding I have." - Louise Hay


MY INNER BEING IS SERENE AND PEACEFUL.
Happiness, fulfillment, and purpose in life are all inner concepts. If you don’t have inner peace and serenity, then you have nothing. - Wayne Dyer

Have a peaceful day, friends!
Love,
Nancy

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Sisters in La Jolla















































Wow, The weather was PERFECT in La Jolla this week! We enjoyed our stay at the Hilton Torrey Pines so much! Thanks Sarah for arranging it and making the trip! Me and the boys loved seeing you, your girls and Mary!!!!
Monday was a big day. I had my PET scan. The whole process took around 2 hours. I didn't realize I'd be emitting radio active material all day long. I had to keep at least 6' away from my boys. sad. The procedure was a piece of cake. Just had to lay there, real still for around 35 minutes. I thought a lot about my friends and family. Having your support has made me feel so special, and STRONG. I should have results in the next day or so. OH! My sentinel lymph node (on my left side) was clean! No cancer cells.
A dear family friend sent me this great poem from John O'Donohue (Irish poet and teacher) - thank you Elaine! I love you!
A Blessing
May you awaken to the mystery of being here and enter the quiet immensity of your own presence.
May you have joy and peace in the temple of your senses.
May you receive great encouragement when new frontiers beckon.
May you respond to the call of your gift and find the courage to follow its path.
May the flame of anger free you from falsity.
May warmth of heart keep your presence aflame and may anxiety never linger about you.
May your outer dignity mirror an inner dignity of soul.
May you take time to celebrate the quiet miracles that seek no attention.
May you be consoled in the secret symmetry of your soul.
May you experience each day as a sacred gift woven around the heart of wonder.

love this!
I'll post more pictures tomorrow. It's time to go to bed. Thanks for checking in on me. You all have to know how much that means to me. I love YOU!
Nancy

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Back online! Thanks Patti for loaning me your laptop!













































































Thanks Marz, for your posting!

Feeling really well. Looking forward to having the chemo start. sooner it starts, the sooner it will be over with!

Check out this daily affirmation from Louise Hay . . . Thanks Lane for sending to me!:

"Each thought is precious. We can learn to think in positive affirmations. Yes, it takes a bit of doing to gain control over our thoughts; however, the rewards are tremendous. The past has no power over us. Even problems have no power over us. Our power lies in the thoughts that we choose to think today. Remember, there are endless opportunities for good before us."
- Louise L. Hay
Your Thoughts Create Your Tomorrows - Heal Your Life

Bonnie Rubin just hooked me up with some Nioxin hair care products! Thank you Bonnie! She recommends I start using this product now, and continue to use during my treatments and after. Great tip and gift Bonnie!!!!


Sarah and the girls come in town tonight! Look forward to seeing them (and Mary!) tomorrow!!!!


Have a great Sunday.


Love,
Nancy