Milk Dud Warrior

Great message.

2011-07-26T12:16:00.001-07:00

Doctors Appointment went well

2011-05-18T10:53:00.000-07:00

So well, in fact, my doctor doesn't want to see for 6 months! Instead of every 3 months! Good news, I think.

The blood test (tumor marker) results showed no sign of tumor cells - I'm in normal range!!! Oh, and it's called CA 27-29 .

My youngest has been sick with a virus for a week now. I took him in on Sunday b/c his fever came back. Doctor said his chest sounded clear and ears looked fine. He suggested we come back on Tuesday if the fever is still present. Well. Tuesday morning he woke up with terrible ear pain. Cough still bad. Low grade fever. Off to KP. They saw us early (9:30). Nolan started to experiance chest pain prior to his appointment so we arrived a little bit early. Dr. could not get a clear picture of Nolan's ears so they tried to flush them out. With no luck. I found that odd b/c the urgent care doctor we saw on Sunday said his ears looked fine. What could cause this much obstruction? We were then sent down for a chest xray. That's when we learned that Nolan had Walking Pneumonia. He's now on a powerful antibiotic and should be feeling better any day now. He's been fever free for 24 hours now so he should be able to return to school tomorrow. Yes. He's been out for 5 days. Poor kid.

Here's a picture of his Xray.

Update: Took Nolan back to the doctors on Thursday, 5/12/11 and the pneumonia had not improved. It actually got worse. With the fever present and cough, it was decided that he be admitted to have an IV w/ antibiotics. That did the trick. He was admitted Thursday afternoon and was home by Friday afternoon. Today, he's feeling so much better. No more fever. Just a slight cough. His hearing is almost back to normal as well. So happy to see my boy feeling better.

Here's a picture of his 2nd xray:

Love,

Nancy

2011-05-06T11:27:00.000-07:00

Hello, it's been so long since I've posted on my blog. . . no news IS good news. I've been a busy mom, just how I like it. My oldest is finishing up his high school track and field season. Can't wait for next year. That kid can run! He has so much endurance. He decided to take a year off from soccer, to devote 100% this summer towards running Cross Country. I understand. I'm sad, but I totally get it. Nolan is playing baseball and soccer. Learning and growing so much. I'm a very proud mama.

My 3 month check up is on Monday, 5/9/11. I don't anticipate any surprises. I'm feeling great. I'll receive the results of my CA125 blood test. Here's a link to learn more about this test. This test will be performed every 6 months. Still not sure what I'm going to do about reconstruction. If it wasn't going to hurt so much, I'd sign up right away. I'll schedule another consult with a plastic surgeon. My hope is that there is a new technology/procedure now, which will work for me. Click here to learn about the current procedures: The Gluteal free flap procedure sounds like a win-win in my opinion! Hehee.

I'll write more on Monday, letting you all know how well I'm doing. :-)

Have a Happy Mother's Day weekend! I plan to.

Love,
Nancy

2011-01-21T06:50:00.001-08:00

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Happy New Year! 2011

2010-12-30T08:03:00.000-08:00

I am feeling well and very excited for the new year! 2011 is going to be an even better year! I have some goals in mind for myself. After seeing Christi Brinkley on TV the other day, looking like she's in her 30's and hearing my boys say "wow! she's 57?" It's time. I can loose those extra pounds I've put on the past couple of years. So, where to start? Tomorrow is the day. I'm a little afraid (not really). My friend Stacey is going to be my PT for a little bit, get me on track. Michelle and I are very excited to get our "core" worked on. It's about time for me. I want that buzz/energy/drive you get when you want to work out. It's going to take some time, but I'll get there. Christine - call me soon and we'll walk the lake or hike the mountain. No more excuses from me! :-)

We had a lovely Christmas. Spent Christmas eve and day at Jeff's parent's house with his family. I loved every minute. Jeff and the boys spoiled me with a pair of UGG boots! yes! I've been wanting a pair ever since I tried on Jeanette's at Thanksgiving. Seriously, I'm not not sure why it took me so long to realized such a good thing. Mom and dad came down the day after Christmas for a quick visit. We spend a couple hours at the mall and then we went out to dinner. Besides being a short visit, it was perfect in every other way. I love you mom and dad! Thanks for your love and support!!!!

Everyday, I'm grateful for my family, for my friends, for the house we live in, for the job I have. I wish that 2011 brings everlasting glow of happiness to us all! Enjoy your new year, to the fullest! I plan to.

"Take time to make a list of all of the aspects of your life that are working and another list of all the aspects that need to change. Ask the Devine guidance to change the things that you are willing to change now. Then take action." Christiane Northrup

December 3, 2010

2010-12-03T09:39:00.000-08:00

Another anniversary. Yep. And this one is huge for me. 1 year ago today, to the minute, 9:30am, I was getting hooked up for my final round of chemotherapy. The chemo saved my life, and I'll be forever grateful for having it run through my veins. So, I get in my car this morning and I pressed CD on the radio, just to see what I had in there to listen to . . .was avoiding listening to the news and overplayed hiphop on the radio. The song that was cued was Hysteric by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's. This song takes me back to my chemo, warrior mode days. Brought back a flood of memories of all the support that was (and still is) around me. I'm grateful for my family and friends that lifted me up in so many ways during my battle. THANK YOU!!!! I love you all!

An Oncologist Writes 'A Biography of Cancer' - NPR Author Interview

2010-11-18T09:55:00.000-08:00

Michelle Nicastro - RIP

2010-11-10T13:04:00.000-08:00

I just learned that Michelle Nicastro passed away this week.  After learning of her death, I searched Google wanting to know more about her story. Turns out that she had a lumpectomy when she was 40. Was told it was pre-cancer. 3 years later she had pain in her back. That's when she learned she had Stage 5 Breast Cancer.  Her courage and strength made an impact on me. Click on the title to learn more about Michelle and her story.

I'm doing well. I have a new oncologist. This is my 4th oncologist, in case you're keeping count . . . He wants to see me every three months. He ordered a Bone Scan and CA27 29 (tumor marker blood test). Both came back normal/negative!  I'll see him again in January, 2011, at which time I guess he'll decide it would be alright if I go in every six months. Either way, I think this new oncologist is a good fit for me. If I can just get use to his really dry sense of humor. Smile.

My hair is continuing to grow. Not as fast I had hoped . . . . I'm grateful for what I have though. Thanksgiving is just around the corner. Can you believe it? Seriously, October flew by! The boys are doing well in school.   Both started new schools this year which was an adjustment. Tate is running cross country and playing soccer. Nolan is playing soccer. Fun times.

Gotta run. I'll try to write again soon. Don't forget to do your monthly self exams! Love your boobies!

Check out this really cool vlog from Kris Carr - really cool message.

Love,
Nancy

Words that really touched me

2010-09-13T12:23:00.000-07:00

My friend, Marsi, who I have a lot in common with, recently wrote this poem. I just have to share this with you. Her words really touched me. I remember my first shower after my mastectomy and her poem took me back to that moment in time.

Nearly Perfect,
Shower after 12 days of not.
The water hitting my skin,
So steamy and hot.

Undressing carefully,
Recognizing my scar.

Air hitting virgin skin,
Only partially marred.

Breast gone.

Matches right side.

Bravery, not so.

Cancer abide.

Stepping into the water,
Refreshing and scary.

Would it hurt, not sure,
Excusingly sparing.

Routinely lathering,
Not reaching, needing care.

Tender touch to rescue,
Holding hand, tears fair.

Not bothered by scar,
Emotions abound.

Needing that hand,
And the kiss that I found.

Hot water renewing,
Strength coming back.

Cancer is gone,
So different, the track.

Learning so much,
Unrecognizably so.

Needing so much,
OK to let go.

~Marsi White

Thank you Marsi for allowing me to post your poem. I love it. I'm sure many women, just like you and me, will find comfort in your poem.

Love,
Nancy

Breast Density & Hormone Theraphy add to BC Risk

2010-09-10T12:22:00.000-07:00

Ever since I was 39, when I started having yearly mammograms, I was told my breasts were dense. That was surprising because my breasts were SO small - how could that be? I was barely an A cup. Seriously. I quickly learned that dense breasts come in all shapes and sizes.

I found this article very interesting. Two months before I found the lump (aka: Milk Dud), I had to be put on progestin to stop a very serious menstral cycle. I was on it for only a week. Two months later, my milk dud that thrieved on hormones was discovered. My life changed in an instant. Remember your monthly self-checks!

Breast Density and Hormone Therapy Add to Breast Cancer Risk

Categories: Breast Cancer, News, Screening/Prevention Breast Cancer Breast Density and Hormone Therapy Add to Breast Cancer Risk

Postmenopausal women with high breast density are at an increased risk of developing breast cancer, according to the results of a study published in the Journal of Clinical Oncology.[1] This risk increases with the use of hormone therapy.

Breast density refers to the extent of glandular and connective tissue in the breast. Breasts with more glandular and connective tissue—and less fat—are more dense. Women with higher breast density are at increased risk of developing breast cancer. Breast density can be assessed by mammography.

In this study researchers examined the relationship between breast density and breast cancer risk based on menopausal status and the use of postmenopausal hormones (either estrogen alone or estrogen plus progestin). Previous studies have indicated that postmenopausal use of estrogen plus progestin increases the risk of breast cancer.

The researchers collected data on 587,369 women who underwent 1,349,027 screening mammograms. Of these women, 14,090 were diagnosed with breast cancer. The women in the group were categorized by age, menopausal status, current use of postmenopausal hormones, and breast density (using the Breast Imaging Reporting and Data System, or BIRADS, to classify density).

The researchers found that breast cancer risk was low among women with low breast density (BIRADS-1) and higher among women with high breast density (BIRADS-4). The risk increased with use of postmenopausal hormones, especially estrogen plus progestin. The data are outlined in the table below:

Table 1: Five-year risk of breast cancer for women age 55 to 59

No hormone therapy Estrogen Only Estrogen plus Progestin

Low Breast Density (BIRADS-1) 0.8% 0.9% 0.9%
High Breast Density (BIRADS-4) 2.4% 3.0% 4.2%

The risk of developing advanced-stage breast cancer was increased 1.7-fold for postmenopausal women with high density (BIRADS-4) who used postmenopausal hormones compared with their counterparts with average density (BIRADS-2).

The researchers concluded that women with high breast density are at an increased risk of developing breast cancer, especially if they use estrogen plus progestin.

Reference:
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[1] Kerlikowske K, Cook AJ, Buist DSM, et al. Breast cancer risk by breast density, menopause, and postmenopausal hormone therapy use. Journal of Clinical Oncology [published early online]. July 19, 2010.

Tonight pretty much all the networks are airing Stand Up To Cancer. I look forward to watching it with my boys. In loving memory of my beautiful sister Susan - click on the link below to learn more about prevention and early detection of skin cancer:
http://www.cancer.org/Cancer/CancerCauses/SunandUVExposure/SkinCancerPreventionandEarlyDetection/skin-cancer-prevention-and-early-detection-skin-exams

Remember this:
Skin cancer is the most common form of cancer - more than 2 million skin cancers are diagnosed each year in the U.S. and that number is rising. Melanoma, a type of skin cancer, is the #1 cancer in men and women ages 20 to 29. Sue was almost 40 when she passed away after a 4 month hard fought battle. Self-examination is key because while melanoma spreads quickly, it can be treated if caught early.

Moles, blemishes or freckles should be checked monthly and any changes should be communicated to your doctor. And remember - skin cancer does not discriminate against skin color, so everyone is potentially at risk.

Love,
Nancy

2010-09-07T14:18:00.001-07:00

2010-09-01T11:48:00.001-07:00

My new favorite blog!

2010-08-24T08:02:00.000-07:00

Click on the title if you want to check out an amazing story of courage. Jen Griffin is a true warrior. Jamie from work told me about her recent return to Kabul. So I just had to Google her name. Real glad to have found her blog. What an inspiration!

San Diego is heating up this week. Love the HEAT! School starts soon for my boys. They had a fun couple of days with their Grandpa and Aunt Wendy at Universal Studios. They came home pretty late last night so I've not had a chance to hear all about it yet. But the looks on their faces when they got home last night was classic. They looked so happy as they said "we had so much fun!". Thank you Gaga and Wendy!

Me and the boys spent the weekend up in 29 Palms a couple weeks ago. What a fantastic weekend. Owen and his family came up as well. And we brought up my Nephew - Phil. Here's a picture I took as we were getting ready to leave. Just took one shot and it turned out great.

from left to right: Phil and Brewski, Nolan, Me, Owie, Poppy, Nana, Owen, Tate, Jeanette and Harley.

The weather was perfect. It had been since Thanksgiving since we were up in 29. Catching up with everyone, enjoying the most amazing night sky was just what I needed. Now, Thanksgiving is just around the corner. That's when my entire family will be home! Counting the days!

If it weren't for this nagging summer cold, I'd be feeling really well. My hair is growing back in nicely. My knee hurts only when I bend it all the way. An MRI confirmed I have a torn meniscus. I think this injury occurred when my car door closed on my leg while I was leaning inside my car. ouch. Plan to have surgery in December.

Soccer starts this weekend for Tate's team! And Nolan's the weekend after! LOVE SOCCER!

Celebrate every relationship you have ever had. For better or worse, our relationships are our best teachers. And on a soul level, we've attracted each and every one of them so we can learn and grow. - Dr. Christiane Northrup

2010-08-10T07:10:00.001-07:00

"You must decide to stay in the feeling of love, prosperity, wellness, or whatever you desire, and let that feeling just flow through you. And remember that you get what you think about, whether you want it or not." - Dr. Wayne Dyer

Avastin

2010-07-17T07:39:00.000-07:00

Good morning. It's already feeling like it's going to be another HOT day in the city. The boys have a soccer tournament which we're all looking forward to. And the best part - is they play at the same location! How cool is that?! We don't need to run around town to two different fields! Very fortunate.

A friend from work (Thanks Linda) forwarded me this MSNBC article regarding Avastin. I was so close to having this treatment as well last summer. I know this drug has been beneficial for other types of cancers but from what I've read, it didn't improve your chances of survivor for breast cancer patients. Plus the side effects are wicked.

Mary and her son Erik came over last night for dinner. We made custom pizzas on the bbq grill (great idea by the Andrews!). Pesto pizza, Pep, Olives, pineapple. . . yummy. We had a perfect visit. I'm sad that my twin is moving across the country. But I'm equally excited for her! I mean, to have this opportunity - to live in a new city and all the exciting elements that are apart of that - she's going to be so happy. Everyone one is going to love Boston. I've never been and this will be a great excuse to visit. And thank goodness for the internet. We can stay in touch everyday!

Well. Gotta run. There's some soccer balls that need to be kicked today. :-)

Checking in

2010-07-09T11:44:00.000-07:00

Nolan's All-Star team came in 2nd place! That was a fun ride! The boys should be very proud. We Are! SC! We Are! SC! SC! WE ARE! Now, on to Soccer!

Tate is enjoying running with his high school cross country team. Plus soccer is keeping the kid really busy!

We had an amazing 4th of July! So much fun. We joined in on a neighborhood bike parade which reminded me so much of being a kid. We decorated our bikes, had patriotic music on full blast. GOOD MEMORIES made that day!

Going to see Mom and Dad this weekend along with Mary and her family and Owen and his! YES! Can't wait! I wish Sarah and her family could make it out. . .

Will post pictures from this weekend real soon.

Love,

Nancy

Compound Found In Broccoli May Prevent Breast Cancer Cell Generation

2010-07-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

Compound Found In Broccoli May Prevent Breast Cancer Cell Generation

And I LOVE Broccoli! This is great news!

Happy 4th of July!

Brazilian Blowout!

2010-06-29T17:15:00.000-07:00

I decided to just go ahead and do it, schedule an appointment to have a Brazilian Blowout. Pam was so sweet to offer to do this for me, at no charge. I seriously can't thank her enough. So, what's a Brazilian Blowout? It's a hair straighting process. My hair, especially in the back, was growing back curly. I called it the chemo curl. It was getting more and more unmanageable as it grew out. Pam saved the day! I'm so happy with the results. I highly recommend this treatment!

So much is new. First of all. I had my knee MRI'd last week. I should hear back in a few days. I'm not expecting any bad news. Just want to see if I injuried it. . . But I could not believe how ridiculously loud the machine was. Wow. My sister Susan had told me about how the sound was so LOUD. She had many MRI's. I hope she was able to use earplugs or something. I'm glad it's over. I thought a lot about my sister, and how much she went through in such a short period of time. . . I miss you Sue!

I had a followup appointment last week as well. Doctor says all is well. Wants to see me every 6 months instead of every 4 months. ummm. I'd rather be monitored every 4 months. . . we'll see. I feel great. The doctor says there is no sign of any cancer. YES!

Today marks the one year mark when I had my 1st surgery: Lumpectomy. I've reflected a lot about that day last year. One thing I would change if I could, I would have demanded an MRI which would have resulted in me just having one surgery, I just know it. Shoulda - woulda - coulda's - SO UNHEALTHY. But if you're getting ready to have surgery, and you feel that an MRI would benifit your decision making - then I highly recommend you listen to your gut, loud and clear. My doctor denied me an MRI. But I learned a lesson. . . not to take no for an answer when my gut tells me otherwise. Right? right.

Tate's participating in an Algebra program at his new high school for 3 weeks. He'll get a lot out of it, I'm sure. He's running Cross Country and playing club soccer. Busy guy! Nolan made the 10-11 Baseball All-Star team! He's have a lot of fun. We are too!

Jeff is doing well. He is so disaplined with his exercise workouts. I think he looks amazing.

Well. Gotta run. Just wanted to jot down a few thoughts.

Love,
Nancy

3T MRI Detects 'Early' Breast Cancer Not Seen On Mammography And Sonography

2010-06-28T14:54:00.000-07:00

3T MRI Detects 'Early' Breast Cancer Not Seen On Mammography And Sonography

2010-06-06T15:02:00.001-07:00

Noreen Fraser on the Today Show

2010-06-03T12:02:00.000-07:00

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Breast Cancer Awareness

2010-06-03T11:36:00.001-07:00

One year has past . . .

2010-06-02T06:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, June 1st, was a pretty special day. Although I'm glad to have it behind me. I've decided, I will celebrate this day in 5 year increments from now on. So, June 1, 2014 - I will celebrate again. Have a milk-dud party! I'll post a picture later of a really clever gift my boss gave me. She's so thoughtful. I played the movie in my head, over and over again, receiving the call June 1, 2009 and completely freaking out learning I had BC. Good things came out of my diagnosis. I learned how strong I am inside. I never knew that about myself. sounds strange, but true. Jeff was my rock. He stood by me, with encouragement and love. As well as my family. And my friends! I felt so much love all around me, all the time.

While I was at work yesterday, I received a call from KP. Ironically, they want to schedule a sonogram of my "chest wall". My primary dr. ordered this. I'm guessing this is protocol. My appointment is Thursday, 6/3 at 8:30am. I'm also having my left knee MRI'd June 17th. It doesn't hurt nearly as bad as it did but I still can't bend it all the way which makes it difficult to do yoga! smile. I received a vmail message from Angela, my support angle from KP. She said "just heard FireFlies (song) and thought of you, hope you're doing well" I called her back asking if she had it on her calendar to call me on the 1 year mark and she said no. That's the universe working, I tell you! Angela called me June 1, 2009, late in the afternoon and gave me some pretty amazing support and advice.

Life is unpredictable. Living it to the fullest is what matters. No shoulda, woulda, coulda's.

My "number 1 son", Tate, is having a ton of fun on his East Coast trip. Today, they're heading to Philly! Lucky kid. he'll be home on Saturday night, late. . . Can't wait to hear all about his trip, in depth. We talk every night. He sounds all grown up. smile.

Peggy, you have amazing strength! I know I've not seen you in for ever, but I do remember you and your contagious energy. Stay strong. Stay present. Kick some cancer ass, girl!

Ok. gotta go. I'll post a picture later tonight.

Love,
Nancy

Got Stress? It May Impact Breast Cancer Recurrence - News Room - University of Rochester Medical Center

2010-05-14T12:12:00.000-07:00

Got Stress? It May Impact Breast Cancer Recurrence - News Room - University of Rochester Medical Center

Checking in

2010-05-13T12:12:00.000-07:00

I had a perfect Mother's Day weekend w/ my boys! We went to 29 Palms to visit my parents. What treat that was! We enjoyed every moment. I am so blessed to have such loving and supportive parents. I thank my lucky stars!

My hair is continuing to grow, at a slow pace. I'm liking my pixie though. Today I'm getting it colored. Not sure what color, most likely brown w/ some highlights. My toenails have been feeling pretty sore, especially my left "thumb" toe :-). Half of the nail is black and blue, but it's almost grown out. I was told I may loose some toe and or fingernails. It's been 5 months since my last treatment and my body is still recovering from it. The only time I notice it is when I lay on my tummy in bed. Ouch. So, maybe this was TMI? I know there's people out there that might find this interesting and validating. My finger nails are fine. I had white lines going across each nail but those have grown out.

The weather is gorgous here in San Diego. The weekend is almost here and I plan to enjoy it!

Love,
Nancy

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2010-04-28T14:08:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday MOM! I sure wish I could celebrate with you. I'm picturing the most perfect day, mom; filled with fun and laughter (and awesome food!). ENJOY YOUR DAY!!!!! I love you!!!!

If you like eclectic music, you may want to check out KCRW Eclectic24's station! I LOVE IT!!!
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I develop a positive state of mind.

2010-04-19T10:36:00.000-07:00

The state of your life is nothing more than a reflection of your state of mind. Dr. Wayne Dyer

2010-04-16T10:09:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to document my hair growth. It's been 4 and 1/2 months since my last chemo. I'm ready for a trim and some color. If I can just find the time to do that!

Happy Friday!

Love,
Nancy

April 15, 2010

2010-04-15T15:38:00.000-07:00

14 years ago today, my beautiful and loving sister, Susan passed away. I honor Susan everyday but especially today, April 15th. I feel her presence even more; an energy around me, protecting and loving me. Sue, I love and miss you everyday. You tought me how to be a brave warrior!

This is one of my favorite pictures of Sue.

Sue lost her battle to Stage IV Melanama April 15, 1996, she was 39 years old. She was diagnosed December 1995.

Please light a candle honoring Sue's memory tonight.

Love,
Nancy

Four Month Check Up

2010-04-13T11:48:00.000-07:00

Last week I had my four month check up (post-chemo) and it went well. My blood work is showing normal-low readings! I had my hormones checked and I am now in menopause, no doubt. Also had a chest x-ray b/c my back, between my angel-wing bone and spine (near my lungs) was cramping really bad. I was up pretty much all night the night before my appointment. It hurt to take a deep breath. I started getting these weird random cramp attacks mid-way through my chemo. They usually lasted an hour or so but this one would not stop. Dr. Polikoff suggested I go in for a massage. Didn't have to twist my arm. . . smile. When Jeff was driving me home from the appointment, I sneezed which caused even more pain in my back. So, I went to ZenSpa (Thank you to all the SDPD ladies who gave me the gift certificate!!!!!) and had a full-body massage. Yoyo really worked out the knot in my back. Although it still hurt to take a deep breath, I was feeling much better. I could move my head from side to side and I could lift my right arm. So, Huge Success at ZenSpa! Oh, my doctor also ordered a DVT test, and ruled out a blood clot. He's so thorough!

I've not heard back from my Dr. regarding the chest x-ray but I think, in this case, no news is really good news. :-)

I'll see my doctor again in 4 months. He said he normally does not order lab work for every appointment. . . I found that odd. But you know me, I will insist. For sure. I might change my Oncologist, so I don't have to drive all the way to San Marco. The commute sucks and that’s the only reason why I’d change doctors.

So, I finally had the courage to ask my doctor what my chances are for recurrence. Back in July, 2009, he asked if I wanted "numbers", in a “used car salesman” kind of way, I instantly said NO! I wasn’t ready. Here are the numbers: I was at 50% chance of recurrence prior to Chemo and now I've cut my odds in half. I have a 25% chance for recurrence. I’d be happier if my chances were zero percent but I’ll take 25% over 50% any day! I’m grateful!

My hair is continuing to grow! Can’t wait to pull it back into a pony-tail! Maybe the end of summer I’ll have the length to do that!

A friend of mine is having surgery tomorrow. Please send healing thoughts to Marsi!

By banishing doubt and thinking in no-limit ways, you clear a space for the power of intention to flow through. The power of intention is so deficient of doubt that when you’re connected to it you see what you’d like to have as already being present. ~Dr. Wayne Dyer

Click on the title "Four Month Check Up" to see what The New York Times has created. It’s a cool and inspiring place for survivors to post their picture and share their story - Picture Your Life After Cancer: Kudos to The New York Times! I’ve not posted a picture yet but I will. I just need to find a good Milk Dud Warrior picture.

Reconstruction

2010-04-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

I'm in NO hurray to have reconstruction done, that's for sure. And I now know what my option is. Backflap and implants. I met w/ my plastic surgeon yesterday and I like her very much. She know's I'm in no rush to schedule this surgery. I'm thinking maybe the Summer of 2011. This is what I learned yesterday:

Since I had radiation, my chest would not be able to support implants, alone. In a nut shell. . .My doctor will move muscle and skin from my back to my chest.

Hospital stay: 1-2 days Recovery time: 3-4 weeks

This is what I have to look forward to. . . see why I'm not in a rush? Smile.

What to Expect During a Latissimus Dorsi Breast Reconstruction:

You will not be awake during your mastectomy or reconstruction, so you will have intravenous sedation or general anesthesia. Talk to your surgeon and the anesthesiologist about which will work best for you, and be sure he or she is informed of all medications and supplements you are taking. If you are having a mastectomy and reconstruction at the same time (immediate reconstruction), your general surgeon will first remove your breast, sparing as much skin as will be safe to keep.

Getting Ready for Latissimus Dorsi Breast Reconstruction:
Your plastic surgeon will use a skin marker to carefully plan for the incision that will create your skin flap. A pointed ellipse will be drawn on your back, over your latissimus dorsi muscle. This ellipse will become the skin flap that closes the incision for your reconstructed breast. When the incision for the flap is shut, it will be about 10 to 15 cm in length and follow the line of one of your ribs.

Moving Muscle and Skin:
Your plastic surgeon will make an incision on the skin markings, raising the skin and muscle flap. A tunnel will be created under your skin so that the flap can be relocated. This tissue flap will go through the tunnel to the front of your chest, keeping its blood supply intact. This ensures that the skin and muscle will continue to live in their new location. The skin will be positioned so that it fills in the skin that was lost during your mastectomy. If you need an implant, the muscle will be draped over it to create the new breast mound.

Closing Incisions and Starting Recovery:
Your back incision will be closed, and a surgical drain may be placed in it to help remove excess fluid. On your chest, the skin flap will be carefully joined to the mastectomy incision. If needed, scar tissue from your mastectomy may be removed in order to create a smoother skin texture at the new incision. Some patients may need a surgical drain in the reconstructed breast to help prevent fluid build-up and promote healing.

Recovering from Latissimus Dorsi Breast Reconstruction:
You may need to stay in the hospital for three or four days as you begin healing from breast reconstructive surgery. If you have surgical drains, you will learn how to empty those and keep records of the fluid volume. Report pain if you have any, so that it can be treated. Don't go right back to work – plan on taking it easy for three to six weeks for recovery. Be sure to have someone around to help drive you and do any lifting. Be sure to go for your follow-up appointments so your surgeon can keep an eye on your incisions and dressings and remove your drains.

I had a crazy dream last night that I met w/ my oncologist and I forgot to bring my list of questions so I just sat there, didn't say a word. My list is in my purse. No way will I forget it. Jeff will be there w/ me.

Gotta run. Will write more later this week.

Love,
Nancy

2010-04-04T08:47:00.001-07:00

Happy Easter All!

2010-04-04T08:29:00.000-07:00

Being relaxed, at peace with yourself, confident, emotionally neutral, loose, and free-floating—these are the keys to successful performance in almost everything you do. - Dr. Wayne Dyer

Yesterday was nearly a perfect day with my family. What would have made it perfect is if Sarah and her family could have joined us.

Seeing mom and dad, my brother, Owen and my sister, Mary along with there amazing family was just what I needed. Everyone looked so healthy and happy! We had a lot of catching up to do! It had been since December since I saw my parents.

I'm continuing to feel well. My knee is sore but not like before. I'm only reminded of the pain when try to sit on the floor or kneel down while taking pictures. Ouch. My hair is growing in nicely. Yes! I have my 4 month (post chemo) appointment with my Oncologist this week. I have so many questions. I'll go over what I learn from my appointment on my blog later this week. My appointment is on Thursday.

My boys are doing very well. Tate's soccer team is playing in the State Cup tournament this weekend, fingers crossed they advance to the next weekend! Nolan is enjoying baseball.

June 6th - can't wait! U2 Time with mom and dad!

I'll post more later today. Happy Easter!

Love,

Nancy

Aspirin a Day. . .

2010-03-09T07:03:00.000-08:00

Well, this is encouraging news.  Warriors who completed treatment for early-stage breast cancer and who took aspirin had a nearly 50 percent lower risk of breast cancer recurrence! I'll discuss this latest study with my oncologist next month. Click on the title to learn more. :-)

I'm feeling stronger every day. My skin is pretty much healed. My hair is growing, but not fast enough, smile. I'm still wearing hats. Speaking of hats! My friend and neighbor, Michelle T. surprised me a couple of weeks ago when she stopped by with some really cute hats and an infinity scarf! They are super cool. And last week, Julie A. stopped by with the coolest hat! Oh, I can totally see myself wearing this adorable hat while watching the boys play soccer and baseball! Thank you, Michelle and Julie!

A few weeks ago, I went to Dream Dinners (thank you CSC U13 for the gift certificate!). I spent an hour or so preparing yummy meals for my family. I enjoyed this experience so much.   http://dreamdinners.com/  Everything I prepared that day was a huge hit come dinner time! I'm going back this month to make more meals!

My white blood cell count was at 2.8 last week. Normal low is 4. My blood will be rechecked this Friday and I expect it will be in the 4 range. Doctors think the low WBC is due to chemo and radiation. Makes sense. The good news: I'm not sick, no infection. My knee pain is subsiding now that the rain (low pressure) is moving out. Hallelujah!!!!!

Love,
Nancy

Orchids in the Rain

2010-02-28T20:20:00.000-08:00

Extracts of bitter melon 'can block breast cancer'

2010-02-25T19:03:00.000-08:00

Extracts of a fruit grown on tropical vines appears to have breast cancer blocking powers, say researchers. Where can I find this odd looking melon?! Click on the title to learn more.

Crazy Sexy Cancer Video - 10/22/2007 - Oprah - LOVE IT!

2010-02-25T12:42:00.000-08:00

"Full-Time Job: Always in the office of healing"

2010-02-16T14:03:00.000-08:00

"I am a being of light. Angels are all around me, helping and guiding me at all times. I am safe and I am loved. Everything in my life happens at just the right time, in just the right place and in the best way for my highest good. And so it is". random daily affirmation

I love this affirmation! Thanks for posting on your blog Rachelle! It's been a while since I've seen this affirmation and the timing could not be more perfect.

I just had my last RAD today! Time to celebrate! A friend from highschool came up with a really cool idea that I wanted to share with you. This is what he posted on my Facebook, thanks Andy!:

"So today is a day for Celebration for our dear friend Nancy! I suggest that we all raise a glass to her and the wonderful woman, mother, sister, daughter, friend and so many other things that she is to us all. How about a synchronized raising of the glasses to Nancy at 5:00 PM Pacific time. Here - Here!"

I love this clever and thoughtful idea! Cheers! 5pm, I'll be sure to be home to raise a glass in celebrating my journey and I'll be thanking my lucky stars for my loving family and amazing friends who have supported me in so many ways throughout this journey. I'll also pause for a moment and honor of all the warriors; praying that an end to breast cancer is near. I'm forever grateful to all the women and men who have paved the way for survivors like me. And to all the warriors that are in the heat of battle, stay strong! You'll get through this! Stay balanced. Keep a positive outlook. Kick some cancer ass.

Oh wait, what's that I hear??? Is that my train, Michelle? My crazy cancer train? Why yes it is! It just pulled in the station and it's time for me to disembark! bye-bye train!

CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!

RIP - Doug Fiegler, lead singer of the Knack

2010-02-15T07:38:00.001-08:00

Living Well Beyond Breast Cancer, by Dr. Marisa Weiss

2010-02-14T09:33:00.000-08:00

Another good book to add to my list. To preview Dr. Weiss' new book, click on the title above.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Calling all Warriors!

2010-02-12T10:15:00.001-08:00

Bang the drum. Paint your face. Run. Walk. Fight for the cure.
Ford and your Ford dealer are recruiting Warriors to help ramp up the fight against breast cancer. Ford Warriors in Pink can be found at the Komen Race for the Cure® events as always, only now they will arrive as a united front, as one in Warrior gear.

Learn about the special meaning behind the Warriors in Pink symbols or read the published articles about these strong individuals all across America below.

Jolie gave me the coolest tshirt! It has the Warrior symbol on it. I LOVE it!
The Warriors ~ Represent the powerful and the courageous that fight against breast cancer. I know many amazing Warriors!
My tshirt has Doves which represents the wish for a quiet peace during the heat of battle and Hearts which represents those who stand strong with loved ones who battle the disease.
I'm wearing my new T proudly. Huge message in a small shirt. LOVE IT!

It's Friday! Long weekend ahead of us! Looking forward to that! After my 12:40 RAD appointment today, I'll only have ONE RAD LEFT! Can you believe it? Oh my! Time to celebrate! I'm now using a cream that my dr. prescribed. It's 1% Silver Sulfadiazine Cream. It stopped the pain, instantly. Seriously. Monday this week, I was in so much pain which actually had brought me to tears; not very Milk-Dud-Warrior-Like. But then, after my 12:30 RAD appointment - I applied the Silver cream miracle ointment and the pain stopped, just like that. I also will start using Jean's Cream, as soon as I receive. Thank you Jacki!
Valentine's Day weekend – Hope you all plan to do something extra special on Sunday. Me and a few other moms are taking our 11 year olds to see the Tooth Fairy. Should be fun!

Dark chocolate & Red Wine – the New Chemotherapy? huh? Jacki found this article that I just had to share. Studies are funny. One day experts say "if you drink wine you may increase your risk of recurrence by 30%" then the next day an article like this surfaces. It's all about moderation. Smile. Do what feels right. Don't have regrets. Live, at peace.

Love,
Nancy

Acupuncture Reduces Hot Flashes in Breast Cancer Patients

2010-02-11T10:39:00.000-08:00

I've been on Tamoxifen since January 1, 2010. I know now what a "hot flash" feels like. I've not had very many of them so far but the few I have had have been intense. They wake me up in the middle of the night, feels like I have a fever, my short hair drenched in sweat. It's OK. I'm actaully releived I'm having hot flashes because now I know that the Tamoxifen is working; it's blocking the hormones that ILC feeds on. That's comforting. Reading this article gives me hope. I'm willing to try Acupuncture. This will be a first for me.

Acupuncture Reduces Hot Flashes in Breast Cancer Patients

Among women treated with hormonal therapy for breast cancer, acupuncture and Effexor® (venlafaxine) were similarly effective at reducing the frequency of hot flashes. These results were published in the Journal of Clinical Oncology.

The majority of breast cancers are hormone receptor-positive. These cancers are stimulated to grow by the circulating female hormones estrogen and/or progesterone. Treatment of hormone receptor-positive breast cancer often involves hormonal therapies that suppress or block the action of estrogen. These therapies include tamoxifen (Nolvadex®) as well as agents known as aromatase inhibitors. Tamoxifen acts by blocking estrogen receptors, whereas aromatase inhibitors suppress the production of estrogen in postmenopausal women.

Common side effects of hormonal therapy include hot flashes and night sweats. Antidepressants such as Effexor have shown some effectiveness in managing these symptoms but can produce side effects and may not be acceptable to all women.

Acupuncture is a form of traditional Chinese medicine that aims to improve health by stimulating specific points of the body.[1] Because acupuncture has shown some promise in reducing hot flashes in breast cancer patients, researchers conducted a study to compare it to Effexor.[2] The study involved 50 women with Stage 0-III breast cancer who were experiencing hot flashes during hormonal therapy. Half the women received acupuncture for 12 weeks, and half the women were treated with Effexor for 12 weeks.

Both groups (acupuncture and Effexor) experienced significant decreases in hot flash frequency. Acupuncture appeared to be as effective at reducing hot flashes as Effexor.

By two weeks after completing treatment with acupuncture or Effexor, hot flash frequency increased in the Effexor group but remained at low levels in the acupuncture group.

Side effects among women treated with Effexor included nausea, dry mouth, dizziness, and anxiety. Acupuncture did not produce any negative side effects.

These results suggest that acupuncture may be as effective as Effexor at reducing the frequency of hot flashes in breast cancer patients treated with hormonal therapy.

References:

[1] National Center for Complementary and Alternative Medicine. Acupuncture: An Introduction. Available at: http://nccam.nih.gov/health/acupuncture/introduction.htm. Accessed January 4, 2010.
[2] Walker EM, Rodriguez AI, Kohn B et al. Acupuncture versus venlafaxine for the management of vasomotor symptoms in patients with hormone receptor-positive breast cancer: a randomized controlled trial. Journal of Clinical Oncology [early online publication]. December 28, 2009.

2010-02-07T08:05:00.001-08:00

The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly. ~Buddha

2010-02-06T10:53:00.001-08:00

Jim Parsons has been nominated for an Emmy for his role in 'The Big Bang Theory' and has a wide and diverse group of admirers. Therefore, it is of no surprise that Jim Parsons plays each and every one of the 30 characters hilariously in the new Stand Up To Cancer video, titled "Up2 You + Me" that was recently added to youtube. The video is showing that everyone should stand up to help end cancer. The video was Created by the Selwyn Brothers. Produced, Directed & Edited by Jesse Selwyn and Written & Performed by Zach Selwyn.

LOVE IT! Thanks Jacki for posting on your blog!

2010-02-06T08:31:00.000-08:00

Found this imagine online, just had to post. Loving the rain today!

2010-02-05T12:33:00.000-08:00

Oh my! I found this really old picture of my hat wear'n boys and their cousin Laura w/ her dog Abbey. So cute!

Angry skin

2010-02-05T11:36:00.000-08:00

It's Friday! The rain is coming! Just ask my left knee. And I have only 6 more rounds of RAD's left! My skin is pretty red. I have one blister but for the most part, my skin is reacting as one would expect, right on schedule. Monday will be my last RAD treatment at Alvarado. Then I'll begin my Boost treatment at a location downtown. Basically, I'll receive the same dose of Radiation, but the targeted area will be smaller. Mainly targeting my scares left from the surgeries. The RAD techs told me "you think your skin looks bad? Just think what your insides look like. Way worse, for sure." That's when I realized I'm being cooked from the inside out. I'm a slow learner. Smile. I'm so glad the weekend is almost here. I plan to catch up on a lot of rest, for sure. Have a peaceful weekend. Enjoy some football and rain! <3

2010-02-01T13:31:00.001-08:00

Last week I saw a big change on my right side, where the radiation is beaming. Sunburn feeling. Red skin. The cream is working really well. I'm using Puremedy bio-ceuticals "infection free" along with Eucerin Aquaphor healing ointment. Good stuff!

Fatigue has set in a little bit.

My hair is growing very slowly. And the color, OMG, is just awful. Dark and grey, blah. If I was a man, I'd be pretty stoked to have hair like this. It's difficult to see myself like this. I mean, I've been bald for a long time now. So, I had gotten use to that look. Now, I look like an old man, no offense. My eyelashes are falling out. I'm just not feeling very girly these days. I guess you can say I'm feeling sorry for myself. But this is temporary.

I've just called SK Sanctuary and booked a free pampering night for Breast Cancer survivors. I had signed up for this event back in September but was not feeling well enough to go. I'm hoping they can give me tips on what to do w/ my ugly hair and also if there's a product to help speed up the growth of my eyelashes.

My boys are doing well. Nolan seems to be a little on edge these days though. The kid has been on the go for two weeks now; he probably just needs a break. With soccer, baseball practice, all-nighter sleep over, homework, field trips, talent show practice and performance – and to top it off, he's been fighting a cold, it's no wonder he's a little punchy. Now that soccer is over (for now) he'll have a couple free nights to relax.

Tate's doing well. He presented his 8^th Grade Science Fair project last week. I'm very proud of him. He did a fantastic job putting it all together! He's having fun playing indoor soccer.

That's it for now. I'll post again soon.

Love,
Nancy

2010-01-28T06:58:00.000-08:00

E.D. Hill to Have Preventative Double Mastectomy

January 27th, 2010

Former Fox News anchor and conservative journalist E.D. Hill informed “The View” co-hosts today that she will have a preventative double mastectomy. Essentially, she does not have breast cancer; she just doesn’t want to get it. And since a strong family history increases her chances of developing the disease, she’s taking action to keep herself as healthy as possible.
Seem too extreme to you? Or would you do it, too? I admire E.D. very much. She made this her choice, on her terms. I love that. As you know, I didn't hestitate to have my left breast removed at the same time my right was removed. Having it removed prophylactiacally was a choice I made. And I'm thankful I listened to my gut on this one, now knowing I had a small invasive lobular carcinoma tumor growing there. I don't regret my decision. Even if my left breast didn't have a tumor, I believe pretty strongly that I would still feel grateful and relieved to have it gone. I hope and pray you never have to make this choice or even have to consider it. Love, Nancy

2010-01-27T10:41:00.000-08:00

Tate's Birthday

2010-01-26T06:54:00.000-08:00

Tate's 8th grade science project is due tomorrow so he needed to work a lot on this. But we did manage to squeezed in a couple minutes of cupcake fun but that was it. Poor kid.

Today I make healthy choices that support and fulfill me ~ Louise Hay

I've got HAIR!

2010-01-23T11:21:00.000-08:00

Good morning! We survived the wild storms, man was that fun! I love the wet weather but turns out my left knee is not a fan. My knee is feeling much better today. Still sore, but nothing like last week. I hear we're in for some more rain next week. Nice. Advil's my new friend.

I was having fun this morning in front of our iMac. I LOVE THIS COMPUTER! Anyway. Here's a fun series of pictures I took. My hair is coming in, slowly but surely. The color is ugly. But that's OK. A friend of mind told me that I should consider a color wash. Bonnie!!!! I'll be calling soon!

Baseball season is here! Nolan starts practice next week. Love this time of year! Tate has an indoor game tonight! Fun times! Speaking of Tate. . . my boy turns 14 on Monday. Man, this kid has changed so much, turning into a young man. Check out this very cool picture that Dick Sanders took of him at Thanksgiving.

Here's Nolan's portrait. Although Nolan was just coming down with the flu (you can see it in his eyes) I still LOVE this picture.

Thank you Dick and Maryann for taking our portraits! We love them!

Have a peaceful weekend!

Love,

Nancy

2010-01-21T16:53:00.000-08:00

Hysteric by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's
No longer, no longer

What you ask
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, the cinders
They light the path
And these strange steps
Take us back, take us back
Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me
Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me
No wonder, no wonder
Other half
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, they splinter
And light the path
And these strange steps
Trace us back, trace us back
Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me
Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysterical

Love this song, even after all these months!

Love,
Nancy

Whirl Wind Weekend full of FUN!

2010-01-20T12:12:00.000-08:00

This weekend went by way too fast. But I managed to cram a lot of fun and experienced many memorable moments! The weekend started on Friday night, dinner out with Jeff and our boys. What a fantastic evening. We told stories, ate a lot and laughed. Perfect night. Saturday morning I had breakfast with Wendy at a really cute newly designed cafe in San Carlos. I look forward to doing this much more often (at least once a month!).

Then it was off to Temecula to meet up with Sarah, Taylor, and Mary. Sarah and Taylor were there to check out a riding clinic. As soon as I drove up to the huge stables I felt an extra surge of energy. Then I met some pretty cool ladies. That night we stayed up late telling stories, and schooling Sarah on FaceBook, smile. Sunday morning I met a Warrior who has amazing energy. She's 1/2 through her Chemo. She's staying real active, not letting chemo get her down at all. Since she's a horse trainer, she has a lot of endourance. It's routine to walk 10 miles a day and ride many horses. She suggested a book "Beating Cancer with Nutrition" http://www.4nutrition.com/beating_cancer.html

I plan to buy this book very soon. Meeting the Horse Trainer Warrior came at a perfect time. She gave me an extra boost, just what I needed to keep me focused on getting through my radiation treaments and continue to live life with a healthy, cancer-free mindset. I'm grateful for that! The weather was picture perfect in Temecula and watching the horses gallop by and spending time with my sisters and getting to know Sarah's very cool friends was so healing. Wow, perfect.

Life is great. My radiation treatments are going well. Just had my 12th one this morning. My left knee is hurting, which is probably caused by arthitus. I saw the Dr. yesterday, they suggested to use ice/heat as well as Advil (800 mg) 3x's a day. But I call my sore knee (which causes me to limp) an insult to injury. I'm just say'n. . .

The 3rd rain storm should hit this afternoon. I love the rain! Please be safe and stay dry. I plan to.

Love,

Nancy

Excellent Affirmation from Christiane Northrup:

It is no small task to change your focus from what can go wrong to what can go right, and to empower yourself to shift from destructive behaviors to those that are generally associated with health. Repeat this to yourself often: "I now resolve to listen closely to that still, wise, strong voice within me that always guides me toward health and joy." - Dr. Christiane Northrup

The age-defying, cancer-busting foods to eat!

2010-01-11T09:11:00.000-08:00

Good morning! I just had my 5th round of radiation. I feel stronger today, mentally. All is well.

Click on title to read about more Superfoods you can add to your diet.

Love,
Nancy

Rethinking Happiness: Part III, KPBS This Emotional Life Series

2010-01-08T10:10:00.000-08:00

I don't know if they'll replay this on TV. But you can watch Part III online for a limited time. I highly recommend this. Thank you Jolie for telling me about this great series on KPBS!!!!

Click on the title to start watching. :-)

Love,
Nancy

Information regarding Radiation Theraphy. . .

2010-01-07T09:54:00.000-08:00

Ten Key Points About Radiation Therapy

• Radiation is a local, targeted therapy designed to kill cancer cells that may still exist after surgery. Radiation is given to the area where the cancer started or to another part of the body to which the cancer spread.

• The actual delivery of radiation treatment is painless. But the radiation itself may cause some discomfort over time.

• External radiation treatment, the most common kind of radiation therapy, does not make you radioactive.

• Treatment is usually given 5 days a week for up to 7 weeks. Sometimes radiation may be given twice a day for 1 week.

• Since the daily appointments usually take about 30 minutes, you'll most likely be able to follow most of your normal routine during treatment.

• Radiation will not make you lose your hair, unless radiation is given to your head.

• In the area where you are receiving radiation, your skin can turn pink, red, or tan, and may be sensitive and irritated. Creams and other medicines can soothe these symptoms.

• During your treatment course, you may feel tired. This feeling can last for a few weeks–even months–after treatment ends.

• Most radiation side effects are temporary.

• Radiation therapy can significantly decrease the risk of cancer returning after surgery.

One down, 29 to go!

2010-01-05T12:48:00.000-08:00

Thanks Jolie for the Milk Dud Message!!!!

Let the radiation begin. . . already!

2010-01-04T20:56:00.000-08:00

Here's the room I'll be receiving my radiation treatments. I've never been in one of these rooms before and I wanted you all to have a visual on where I'll be every day, Monday - Friday, from 8am - 8:15am.

Today turned out to be a test run. More Xrays, more laying STILL for 30 minutes. Everything lined up nicely. I'm ready for the real thing tomorrow morning. Bring it!

Thank you for your amazing energy. I'm soaking it in!

Time to go to bed. Sweet dreams.

Love!
Nancy

Weather in San Diego

2010-01-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

We can expect temps to be in the 70's for most of this week. Can you believe it? So grateful for this amazing weather.

The Chargers play today! Go Chargers!

The boys return to school tomorrow . . . they've been playing PS3 pretty much non stop during their break. I don't understand the fascination of war games . . . but they're having fun . . . back to the reality tomorrow, when their alarm clocks go off. Speaking of reality. . . my radiation treatments begin tomorrow. And I'm on my 3rd day of Tamoxifen. So far, so good. Since chemo, my joints have been bothering me. Especially my left knee. Yesterday was my worst day. Tate and I went shopping and we were walking pretty fast around the mall, weaving in and out of the crowds; trying to get where we were going. After about a 1/2 hour of that, my knees hurt bad. I plan to call my doctor tomorrow. After Google'ing knee pain and chemo - it looks like this may be my new normal, get use to it. I'll try my trampoline today, maybe that will help. And I'll start taking fish oil.

Off to do Yoga! Have a peaceful day!

Love you!
Nancy

Happy New Year to ALL!

2009-12-31T10:00:00.000-08:00

The New Year is so close! I wanted to take this time to thank everyone that has been there for me, especially these past 7 months. The numerous inspirational cards, amazing dinners, dinner gift cards, massage gift certificates, bracelets, books, blankets, scarves, hats, lunches with the SDPD Lab Chick Cheerleaders! & dinners out with some of my awesome girlfriends, weekends in La Jolla . . . oh my . . . the list goes on! Everyone has been amazing. The healing energy that I've received from all of you these past 7 months have made me a true believer. I've learned a lot from this experience. Eckhart Tolle's book - The Power of NOW - really put things into perspective for me. "Whenever anything negative happens to you, there is a deep lesson concealed within it, although you may not see it at the time" So true. I've learned a huge lesson, and I continue to learn and grow, throughout this journey that I'm upon. Listen to your body, live in the now, focus on what is good in your life. Don't dwell on shoulda, woulda could of's. I have my moments when I wonder off the "now" path and worry about stuff that just doesn't matter, I guess that's to be expected because that way of thinking has always been a big part of who I was. I was a worrier, 24-7. Like last night, I had a terrible night. Worrying about starting Tamoxifen. This is a breast cancer treatment which I'll be on for at least 5 years. It's a hormone blocker. Since my cancer cells thrived on hormones, it's time to block them. This drug will have side-effects and possible risks but those risks are nothing compared to what might happen if I don't take this drug. I'm grateful for this treatment. I really am. I should have started taking this drug a week ago today, 3 weeks after my last treatment. But I wanted one full week, with no drugs in my system. The chemo has pretty much moved on out so it felt amazing to have no poison, no chemicals in my body. I'll start this treatment tomorrow. January 1st. Seems appropriate to start off the year this way. It you're interested in learning more about Tamoxifen, click on the title of this post. :-)

Being a worrier really wore me down in many ways. Feels so good to move on from that way of thinking. I've replaced being a worrier to being a warrior, Milk Dud Warrior to be exact. You all gave me the courage to be a warrior! I'll be forever and a day grateful!

Christian Northrup has a perfect affirmation for today:

Dietary improvement and exercise are doomed to failure unless they're accompanied by a great deal of self-love, humor, and personal flexibility. I will make slow and permanent changes in my eating and exercise habits so that they become my new lifestyle, not a temporary diet or quick-fix plan.

I sware, she is speaking to ME! :-)

Thanks mom and dad for the Yoga dvd. Love it! And with the mini-trampoline that Jeff got me, I'm off to a great start. Did you know that rebounding (jumping on the trampoline) is beneficial to your health? This link has a great article about that. http://www.healingdaily.com/exercise/rebounding-for-detoxification-and-health.htm

We'll bring in the new year with friends tonight. Can't wait! Have a Happy and Safe New Year's Eve! Watch out for the drunks on the road!

Just had to add one more Eckhart Tolle quote from the Power of Now:
"Life is now. There was never a time when your life was not now, nor will there ever be"

And Wayne Dyer:
"Miracles come in moments. Be ready and willing"
"Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone."

And Christiane Northrup:
Feeling grateful to or appreciative of someone or something in your life actually attracts more of the things that you appreciate and value into your life.

GOOD NEWS . . . Rachelle won her appeal to have the Cyber-Knife treatments! So happy for you, Rachelle! WAY TO GO GIRL!

Love you all!

Nancy

Affirmations that I just had to share!

2009-12-28T19:35:00.000-08:00

"Success is an inside job. Being relaxed, at peace with yourself, confident, emotionally neutral, loose, and free-floating-these are the keys to successful performance in almost everything you do." -- Dr. Wayne Dyer

"Focus on what's working in your life, the positive stuff, because that which you focus on and think about the most is actually what manifests in your life." -- Dr. Christiane Northrup

Have a peaceful night! I love you all! Can't wait for 2010! Twenty-ten; two thousand ten; ten; not sure which phrase I'll use for the new year but one thing is for sure, it will be welcomed - with open arms!

Love,
Nancy

More Christmas pictures!

2009-12-27T14:35:00.000-08:00

Mom and Dad just got on the rode, they're heading back home to 29 Palms. We had such a nice visit. I miss them already!!!!

Here's a nice shot of all of us! Plus I added some pictures that dad had on his camera from their visit w/ Owen and Jeanette (Xmas Eve) and Mary and Craig's (Christmas Day)

Love,

Nancy

oh, and I added two pictures that I took Christmas day, using Wendy's super cool macro lens. Wow, I had fun playing w/ that lens! Thanks Wendy!

Christmas day - 2009

2009-12-25T22:26:00.000-08:00

What a day! We had a great time at Granny & Gaga's! Here are a few pictures! I'm so tired right now, way past my bed time. I'll write more soon. Love! Nancy

Christmas time is HERE!

2009-12-25T09:00:00.000-08:00

SUCCESS & ABUNDANCE

Be the Light

5 keys to brighten the holiday season.

Great article. Please click on title to read. Hope your day is perfect and peaceful!

Love,

Nancy <3

My words - 2009

2009-12-24T07:37:00.001-08:00

Wordle.net created this word list from my blog. check it out! Love this!

OK. Now, it's time to bake! <3

Love,
Nancy

Words

2009-12-24T07:08:00.000-08:00

Wow, I can't believe it's Christmas Eve! We have a full day planned. Last minute shopping and baking to do.

If you click on the title "words" you'll be linked to a cool website called wordle.net. I cut and pasted my mom and dad's Christmas note this year and came up with this cool word list. Love it! thank you Jolie for telling me about wordle.net!

I'm excited for 2010. Seriously, I get goosebumps thinking about it! 2009 was an eye opening year for me. I have clarity now. My eyes are wide open. Life is unpredictable. Each day should be lived to the fullest. Live in peace. Don't dwell on the past or fret over the future. Be balanced. Happy. Thankful. Spend more time with family and friends. Exercise. Eat healthy. Be positive. . . just to name a few. . .

I stumbled upon this Eskimo legend yesterday. . . I just love it! I thought of Sue, my sister, right away, and all my loved ones that have passed away. This gives me so much comfort.

Perhaps, they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy. -- Eskimo legend

I wish you all a happy holiday! May your season be Merry and Bright!!!! I Love Christmas time! Mom, Dad, Mary and Jessica: See you Saturday morning, bright and early!!!!

Gotta run! There are cookies to bake! and presents to wrap!!!

Santa's coming to TOWN!

Love,

Nancy

A thank-you a day. . . Can keep sickness away - Dr. Christiane Northrup

2009-12-16T11:16:00.000-08:00

Please click on the title to read Dr. Christiane Northups message regarding the power of being grateful!

I'm continuing to feel well. Just a little fatique and soreness. I'm happy to say that my taste buds are almost back to normal. Woo hoo! Just in time for the holidays!

This weekend will be a busy one. Time to get serious about Christmas shopping!

Happy Holidays!

Love,
Nancy

Polar Express Train Ride 2009

2009-12-12T22:33:00.000-08:00

Today, we rode the Polar Express to the North Pole! Me and the boys enjoyed the hot chocolate, signing Christmas songs and eating cookies on the train with Aunt Wendy, Uncle Brian, Aunt Erin, Granny, Gaga, Lia, Melanie, Hailey & Dylan!!! Good times!!! Thank you Granny & Gaga!

Tate and Dylan

Hailey and Nolan

Lia and Dylan

Melanie and Gaga

Soy might limit risk of recurrence

2009-12-11T18:15:00.000-08:00

Click on the title to learn more about the benefits of Soy!!!!

Drinking alcohol may increase your risk of Breast Cancer reoccurrance

2009-12-11T18:12:00.000-08:00

Click on the title to learn more. . . Eating healthy, loosing weight and exercising should lower my risks considerably so a glass of wine here or there should be fine. I'll check w/ my doctor though.

Love,
Nancy

Radiology Oncologist Appointment

2009-12-10T19:07:00.000-08:00

My appointment went really well today. My Doctor is very nice and reassuring. She is recommending 6 weeks of radiation. Ironically, my first oncologist, who moved up to San Marcos, called me this morning (responding to an email I had sent him). He told me that the radiologist oncologist may suggest 5, 6 or 7 weeks of radiation. So I was prepared. I start my treatments on Monday, Jan 4th. I'll have 30 sessions. 5 weeks I'll go to Alvarado Hospital and my last week I'll have my treatment Downtown, SD. I had a non-diganostic CT scan today to map out where the radiation will go. I now have three tattoos. Real tiny little dots. Barely noticeable. I'll have them forever though. Side effects to expect: Burn, possible weeping wound after 3 weeks or so of radiation. I'm prepared. Lisa and Ken gave me just the remedy. Thank you!!!! I should also expect to feel fatigue. Nothing like chemo though. My schedule is posted and I look forward to cross off each week as they go.

Back to my phone call with my 1st Oncologist. . . I've decided to go full circle and be reassigned to him. It means I'll travel to San Marcos every 3 to 6 months but that's OK.

have a peaceful evening.

love you!
Nancy

2009-12-09T15:22:00.000-08:00

"Our chakras not only metabolize energy, they also sense and put out energy. So, whenever you block an experience, you're blocking a positive emotion and that corresponding chakra. This means you project those deep-rooted feelings into your life to create your reality. By really tuning into yourself and your chakras, you can heal yourself and make dramatic changes in your life." --Deborah King on Truth Heals

Burrrrr

2009-12-09T07:02:00.000-08:00

It's another chilly morning. Chemo fog has lifted for the last time and I can't put into words on how happy that makes me. The last lingering symptoms are sudden jolts of pain in my chest wall and ribs. Tylenol helps a lot w/ this. Sore knees and ankles. Every minute I feel a tiny bit better! I'm grateful! So grateful!

Jeff and I will meet my Radiologist Oncologist tomorrow to go over my radiation treatment which should begin early January.

CWSL - Thank you for all the dinners you've brought my family during my chemo recovery! We all are eating well, no doubt about that! Loving it! And we're extremely grateful!

We have a busy weekend coming up! Tate's soccer team made it to the Semi-Finals - he plays on Saturday! We'll pickup our Christmas Tree! Polar Express train ride! Sunday - more SOCCER! Love it! And decorate Grandma Spencer's Christmas tree. And any free time will be spent Christmas shopping! Love this time of year!

Love you!

We achieve so little, says A Course in Miracles, because we have undisciplined minds. Training our minds to think from a loving, faithful perspective is the greatest boost we can give to our immune systems, and one of the greatest challenges we can pose to our minds. - Marianne Williamson

Please click on the title to learn about adding Energy boosters to your diet.

Nancy

Dr. Wayne Dyer - Your present moments are precious.

2009-12-05T16:03:00.000-08:00

Perfect message. Please Click on title to read.

Have a peaceful day!

Love,
Nancy

Put a fork in it!

2009-12-03T14:57:00.000-08:00

I'm all done w/ my chemo treatments! And to top it off, this session was, by far, the best one yet! KP was on time, I had the best nurse on staff (actually, they're all good), and it only took 4 hours! Not the 6 hours we've gotten use to. I even had a nap today! Wow. Maybe it was the cookies I brought all the nurses? I'll never know. . . but I kind of now wish I had brought goodies every session! Smile!

Thanks for all your great emails and text messages - they helped me get through this day! Now it's time to recover. Lay low. Going to get lots of rest. I was up at 2:30am. The doctor suggested I take my Xanax if I wake up early again. I'll also keep my iPod next to my bed, and chill out w/ some amazing meditation music that my Super Cool friend Lane gave to me!

I'm feeling great right now. Kind of on a high from knowing I won't have to go back to the chemo lounge! Thanks for your love and healing energy. You all helped me through this. All your well wishes kept me strong! Thank you!!!!!!

Radiation should start early January. I'm meeting my Radiologist Oncologist on 12/10. This should be a piece of cake compared to my Chemo Trip! Bring it!

Now its time to cross off 12/3!

Love,
Nancy

2009-12-03T07:25:00.001-08:00

2009-12-03T06:46:00.001-08:00

When human beings stand by one another, testify to their faith, and witness each other's pain, miracles happen. If we are loved enough, we are emotionally healed and spiritually made whole. - Marianne Williamson

2009-12-02T10:21:00.000-08:00

to: Nancy Graham
from: Nancy's oncologist
received: 12/2/09 9:36 AM

Dear Nancy,
OK to proceed with treatment if you feel ok:

WBC'S AUTO 3.5 12/02/2009
HGB 12.1 12/02/2009
HCT AUTO 35.9 12/02/2009
PLT'S AUTO 213 12/02/2009

Let me know if you have any question.
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Heck yes, I feel OK! I'm ready to get this 6th round over with ALREADY!!!!

2009-12-01T08:50:00.000-08:00

Each of us is born with a unique passion and purpose. And that purpose may be as simple as deciding to be happy! When you are fulfilling this purpose, you are contributing to the health of the entire planet. - Dr. Christiane Northrup

Nolan is feeling better, fever is gone. But his cough is still bad and his voice is still gone. We decided to keep him home at least one more day. He's spending this time away from school resting on the sofa watching VH1. I think we'll watch UP or ELF today. Heck, we may just watch both!

Today, I have an appointment to see my new oncologist. I'm feeling peaceful today. This morning, I had spurts of anxiety but I got over it by focusing on happy thoughts, taking deep breaths. In other words, I meditated. It worked. I'll have my blood work checked today, to make sure my white blood cell count is at a good level. It will be.

I love Dr. Christiane Northrup's affirmation!

Have a peaceful day!

Love,

Nancy

2009-11-29T11:42:00.000-08:00

It's Sunday, and we're busy doing laundry, getting ready for a busy work week. Thursday is a big day - my last infusion. Wow, what a trip this has been. I'm so ready for my chemo days to be behind me.

I've been exposed to the flu, again. Nolan's been sick since Thursday night. He's feeling better but he still has a fever - 101 as of this afternoon. And he's lost his voice. Yesterday he could barely whisper but today, he can. Tamiflu should help kick this flu out of his system faster.

Thursday, Thanksgiving - 29 Palms. We all had a blast! The weather was amazing. Not a cloud in the sky. Mom and Dad did an amazing job with dinner! Everyone was home. Truly special. All the cousins (minus Nolan b/c he was sick and Erik b/c he's 7) went to see New Moon on Friday night. All the kids piled in one car and drove to Yucca Valley. Sounds like fun was had!

I normally take hundreds of pictures at Thanksgiving but this year, my 4gb CompactFlash card was acting up. Once I re-formated the card, all was good.

I miss my family. I vote we have another family reunion real soon. Maybe March???

Thanksgiving - 29 Palms, Ca 2009

2009-11-28T13:06:00.000-08:00

Left to Right: Barry (holding Zoe), Laura (holding Bella), Sarah (holding Bailey), Taylor, Mary, Erik, Craig, Mom, Jessica, Philip, Jeanette (holding Harley), Owen, Sarah, Owen, Dad, Tate, Jeff, Nolan, Nancy

Thanksgiving was Perfect! Well, just about perfect. . . Nolan came down with the flu Thursday night . . . He's on Tamiflu now and is resting comfortably. Poor kid.

Dinner was the best ever. Mom and Dad had a house full of family and friends. The weather was perfect. I'll post pictures later. But here's a family shot we took up in the Joshua Tree "monument" yesterday. The weather sure changed from mid 70's the day before to chilly 60 degrees.

OK. Gotta run. I'll post more later.

Love, Nancy

2009-11-23T11:12:00.000-08:00

My thougths are filled with visions of my wellness. My heart feels the freedom that healing brings to me and my body feels the tingle of perfect health!

Thanks Traci, this is a perfect affirmation and the timing of this could not be better.

Found this mantra on the internet:

Om, May all be happy. May all be healthy.
May we all experience what is good and let no one suffer.

2009-11-23T07:10:00.001-08:00

"I create the world that I live in. No one can create negativity or stress within you. Only you can do that by virtue of how you process your world." - Dr. Wayne Dyer

My new favorite song - you & me - Dave Matthews Band

2009-11-22T08:54:00.000-08:00

Had to make a Starbucks run this morning, was all out of my Pikes Peak. I ordered my pumpkin spice latte, and Jeff's Eggnog latte plus my Pikes. The barista then gave me a cd for spending over $15 (for a limited time, while supplies last). Starbucks also contributed $1 to the Global Fund to help fight AIDS in Africa. CD is called is All you need is LOVE. Here's link to learn more information regarding Starbucks Love Project [RED]: http://www.starbucksloveproject.com/#/cd/

Playing for Change - All you need is love
U2 - I Believe in Father Christmas
Dave Matthews Band You & Me (Acoustic)
John Legend - [RED]EMPTION SONG

Today will be fun. One more soccer game. Then I'm meeting Michelle B. downtown to experience the 3Day Walk closing ceremony at Petco Park. This will be a first for me. I know the energy will be healing and amazing. Just what I (we) need. <3

Yesterday - Tate and I went to Cindy's memorial service. She planned every single detail. Cindy's faith and courage has inspired me from day one of her illness. Cindy's Sacred Journey and her HUGE Circle of Friends has taught me a lot, opened my eyes wide. We're so thankful to have been a part of Cindy's celebration of her life.

Have a peaceful day. Thanksgiving is just around the corner. There is a lot to be thankful for. . .

Love this Affirmation!

2009-11-20T11:42:00.001-08:00

"The final stage required for healing and optimal functioning of mind, body, and spirit involves releasing the power of the wound to control your life. True health and freedom requires forgiveness and letting go of the past." - Dr. Christiane Northrup

GET HEALTHY: Is Stress Damaging Your Health? Bring more wellness into your world.

2009-11-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

Click on title to read more:

Stress can actually lead to weight gain, high blood pressure, heart problems, fatigue, muscle and joint pain, headaches, and other illnesses and chronic health conditions.

Get moving! That’s right—exercise is one of the best ways to reduce stress in your life. It relaxes muscles and eases tension.
Meditate and breathe deeply. Spend a few minutes of quiet relaxation first thing in the morning and later in the day. Sit and close your eyes and focus on your breathing. This way, you’ll bookend your day on a stress-free note.
Eat a stress-relieving diet. Take stress off your digestive system by eating at least 7 servings of fresh fruits and veggies daily; they are high in water content and easily digestible.
Keep your body hydrated. Our bodies are 70% water; our cells are 70% water; our planet Earth is 70% water. That’s no coincidence. Each day, drink at least 7 glasses of purified water. A healthy body is a fully hydrated body.
Catch plenty of Zzzs. Lack of sleep undermines your body’s ability to deal with stress. That’s why it’s important to get 7-8 hours of rest per night.
Laugh a lot. Mollify stress with lots of laughter. It releases endorphins into the body that act as natural stress-beaters. It also helps relieve pain and counteracts fear, anger, and depression, all of which are linked to illness and stress.
Be thankful—and reap the health benefits. Each and every day, take a moment and be grateful for all you have in life. Focusing on the positive, even during difficult times, is a wonderful way to reduce and alleviate stress and transform your life.

Susan Smith Jones, Ph.D., Susan enthusiastically shares her wisdom and expertise on simple ways to create vibrant health and live a balanced, peaceful life. Visit: http://www.susansmithjones.com/

The 3Day starts today! I'm in awe of all the supporters, survivors, and warriors that take part in this event. So inspiring! Sending pure love their way!!!!

Love,

Nancy

Dr. Daniel Kopans slams the task force on CNN

2009-11-19T12:05:00.000-08:00

Added On November 19, 2009

Dr. Daniel Kopans, a leading expert on mammograms, slams the task force that penned new guidelines.

Mammogram Debate - CNN story.

2009-11-19T10:44:00.000-08:00

This Task Force Panel is ridiculous. Seriously, she seems so heartless. "Life years gain . . . is not very large". . . wow, she's an idiot. I trust that all will be well. This nonsense idea will be ignored.

"Fear patterns block healing, especially fears that are based on nonsense, superstitions, and irrationality." - Caroline Myss

2009-11-18T09:32:00.001-08:00

We have great power to affect the attitudes and behavior of the people around us, at work and at home. We have the power to set a tone of honor, to create an energy around ourselves that says, "I respect myself. I respect you. Let's respect each other." - Marianne Williamson

Ethon Zohn's Real 'Survivor' Story

2009-11-18T09:08:00.001-08:00

Hospital Employees Do Pink Glove Dance for Breast Cancer

2009-11-18T08:20:00.001-08:00

Affirmation

2009-11-17T16:10:00.000-08:00

MY POSITIVE THOUGHTS CREATE A POSITIVE LIFE.

You can reshape your thinking so that you never have to think in negatives again. You and only you choose your thoughts.

Dr. Wayne Dyer

Tuesday checkin & nytimes.com article

2009-11-17T09:37:00.000-08:00

5:45am -
Good morning. Wow. The fog is finally lifting! Sunday night was my worse night so far. Went to bed at 8pm and was up, wired but extremely tired at . . . get this. . . 9:45pm. So, every half hour or so, I'd check the clock. That went on all night. Yesterday, I caught up on some sleep. Went to bed at 9:30pm and stayed a sleep until 5:30am! YES! I feel re-energized!

New symptoms this time: Muscles are really feeling the effects of the taxotere. Shooting pains in my ribs, joints hurt, muscle fatigue and spasms. By the 2nd week of December, I should be feeling MUCH better. The taxotere will be moving on out, for good!

Huhn? I just found this NY Times article . . . And it's upsetting to say the least. . . this could be a huge step backwards. . .

In Reversal, Panel Urges Mammograms at 50, Not 40

What the heck??? This news comes the same week I find out another local friend has breast cancer and another just might. Pretty much the same age as me. I can't imagine this recommendation from "an influential group" will change the protocol for mammograms. If it does, I think all the pink wear'n people of America will stand up and fight, yet another battle. Unless another, better, option other than Mammogram is offered, this is not going to fly. As you know, my milk dud was not found on Mammogram but I know A LOT of women that had their lives saved w/ having a yearly screening.

The first paragraph of this article reads:

Most women should start regular breast cancer screening at age 50, not 40, according to new guidelines released Monday by an influential group that provides guidance to doctors, insurance companies and policy makers.

"An influential group" is recommending this. Real title: The U.S. Preventive Services Task Force (USPSTF)

Please click on the link (title) above to read the article.

There's another article, in opposition of this new proposed ridiculous protocol change.

I'm speechless and pissed that this would even be considered.

Saturday Checkin

2009-11-14T17:33:00.000-08:00

Hi,

What a day. I'm deep in a chemo fog now. Have not been able to sleep much. Was up at 12am Friday morning. Up this morning at 1:30am. I'm really tired. Ready to sleep. Soon. I will try again. It's part of the process. I'm in warrior mode. I'll be feeling better soon. I felt surges of healing energy today. I feel your love.

Sweet dreams, have a peaceful night.

Love,
Nancy

Dr. Christiane Northrup

2009-11-13T06:47:00.000-08:00

"Each of us has within us a divine spark. Our bodies are permeated and nourished by spiritual energy and guidance. Having faith and trust in this reality is an important part of creating health. Each of us has a guardian angel, but to benefit maximally, we have to ask for guidance and be open to receiving it."

Perfect timing for this affirmation. R.I.P. Cindy. Your strength and courage, from day one of your diagnosis, really inspired me and many others. Love you! Sending healing energy to your family and friends. <3

Fifth Round - CHECK!

2009-11-12T19:46:00.000-08:00

I finished my 5th round today around 2:30. Long day, for sure. But it was uneventful. No surprises in the Chemo Cafe. Grateful for that! I hate surprises! Smile.

Check out this hat! I bought it this morning at my favorite store - TARGET! I felt like I had my pony tails back - but in green! I got so many complements today. I'm not sure if they felt sorry for my taste in hats or they really liked the hat. LOL! I mean, this hat is not for everyone. I love it. I don't care if I look like a dork in it. :-)

Jeff was amazing. I love that he's by my side during my chemo sessions, making me laugh, making the time go by quicker. I love you Jeff! My fantastic friend Michelle stopped by as well. What a treat. I love you girl! Loved our visit!

Have a peaceful night.

Love,

Nancy

Mitakuye Oyasin

2009-11-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

Aho Mitakuye Oyasin....All my relations. I honor you in this circle of life with me today. I am grateful for this opportunity to acknowledge you in this prayer....To the Creator, for the ultimate gift of life, I thank you. To the mineral nation that has built and maintained my bones and all foundations of life experience, I thank you. To the plant nation that sustains my organs and body and gives me healing herbs for sickness, I thank you.To the animal nation that feeds me from your own flesh and offers your loyal companionship in this walk of life, I thank you. To the human nation that shares my path as a soul upon the sacred wheel of Earthly life, I thank you. To the Spirit nation that guides me invisibly through the ups and downs of life and for carrying the torch of light through the Ages. I thank you. To the Four Winds of Change and Growth, I thank you.You are all my relations, my relatives, without whom I would not live. We are in the circle of life together, co-existing, co-dependent, co-creating our destiny. One, not more important than the other. One nation evolving from the other and yet each dependent upon the one above and the one below. All of us a part of the Great Mystery. Thank you for this Life.

Mitakuye Oyasin is a Lakota Sioux prayer. The phrase translates as "all my relations." It is a prayer of oneness and harmony with all forms of life: other people, animals, birds, insects, trees and plants, and even rocks.

Praying for the Highfill's! Love you Cindy - you are my Inspiration, My Courageous Friend. My Scar Sister Warrior.

Card i pulled today. very appropriate:

There are no accidents in an intelligent universe so all the dark times, accidents, illnesses, and broken dreams were part of your spiritual advancement. Embrace them, understand them, accept them, honor them, and then transform them in your own way. - Dr. Wayne Dyer

Have a peaceful day.

Love,
Nancy

Dr. Wayne Dryer

2009-11-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

Affirm Your Good Health - During any moment in which you’re experiencing thoughts that make you feel sick or bad, do your best to change them to thoughts that support the idea of feeling good. Refuse to talk about disease, and work to activate thoughts that predict recovery and overall well-being. - Dr. Wayne Dyer

I've posted this affirmation before, I needed another reminder though.

Have a peaceful day.

Happy Birthday, United States Marine Corps!

Sunday checkin

2009-11-08T09:13:00.000-08:00

The angels say that we needlessly worry about our future, not realizing, as the angels put it, that "you are the master of your day." - Doreen Virtue

i love this one!

OK, it's Sunday morning. . .I'm still feeling calm. . . with a little anticipation. I know what to expect on Thursday. Another date will be lined out. I will be in the chemo fog for at least 6 days. The timing of the 5th and 6th round is perfect. I'll be able to enjoy Thanksgiving with my family. Truly grateful for that! I can't wait to see everyone! Family and friends!

The weather is cooling down in San Diego. Fall is for sure here. I can't help but think about Stellan. A brave little boy who's going to have surgery today. I've been following his blog/story for a while now and today is a big day for him and his family. Click on the title to learn more about Stellan.

have a peaceful Sunday.

love,
nancy